Conversation about the LOVE

Jesus said to me, "I LOVE PEOPLE WITH ALL MY HEART. HOW DO YOU LOVE THE PEOPLE?"
I answered, "WELL, NOT WITH  ALL MY HEART."
Jesus said, "GOOD. GOOD JOB! YOU ARE NOT SUPPOSED TO LOVE PEOPLE WITH ALL YOUR HEART. YOU ARE TO LOVE THE LORD WITH ALL YOUR HEART, IT IS I IN YOU WHO WILL LOVE THE PEOPLE WITH ALL MY HEART."

Jesus said to me, "I WILL SEND YOU TO THE NATIONS. HOW DO THE NATIONS EXPERIENCE THE OVERFLOW OF MY LOVE? DO THEY RECEIVE IT BY THE RAIN THAT FALLS, BY GOING TO THE SHOPPING MALL AND BUYING WHAT THEY LIKE?"
I answered, "BY YOUR DISCIPLES, COMMANDMENT LOVE ONE ANOTHER."
Then I saw a scene in heaven people from every nation worshipping God.
Jesus said, "HOW DID THESE PEOPLE COME TO WORSHIP GOD IF I ONLY CAME TO JUDEA?"
I said, "YOUR DISCIPLES WERE SENT OUT." Aha moment, they experience Your love through me, so that they can become worshippers of God.
Jesus continues, "SO WHY CANNOT THEY BECOME WORSHIPPERS OF GOD BEFORE THEY KNOW MY LOVE? BECAUSE THEIR SIN IS ON THE WAY. REMEMBER HOW I SAID QUITE FREQUENT: 'YOUR SINS ARE FORGIVEN.' IN THAT MOMENT, THEY FELT DIRECT LOVE OF GOD UPON THEM AND TOWARD THEM. MY MERCY IS EVIDENT IN LOVE TO EACH PERSON.
Then I see another scene: one tree is tall and strong and another is young and fragile. The one who is fragile requires more love.
Jesus said, "AT WHAT CIRCUMSTANCES DO PEOPLE FEEL MORE FRAGILE? AREN'T THEY IN TROUBLE TIMES, IN NEED, IN SICKNESS, ETC. HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE A PERSON WHO FEELS SECURE? THIS PERSON DOES NOT NEED ANOTHER FOR HELP OR ANY KIND OF SERVICES. SO, NOW YOU TELL ME, WHY I DIDN'T SHOW THE SAME LOVE TO PHARISEES?
IN THE KINGDOM, IT'S ALL ABOUT LOVE, NOT ABOUT WHO CAN WIN OR GET SOMETHING, WHO IS FASTER OR MORE MATURE. MY CHILDREN KNOW THAT THEY LOVE ME AND THEY CONSTANTLY NEED ME FOREVER. I AM THEIR SOURCE OF LIFE, THEIR LOVE THAT WASHES ALL SINS AWAY.
NOW I WANT YOU, CHILD, TO CHOOSE TO FOLLOW ME WHEREVER I LEAD YOU- EVEN TO THE DEEPEST PIT OR HIGHEST MOUNTAIN- BECAUSE YOU NEVER KNOW WHETHER ONE OF THOSE LOST SHEEP BECAME SO FRAGILE AND MIGHT EVEN HAVE A CHANCE TO EXPERIENCE MY LAVISHING LOVE. I WANT THEM, CHILD, JUST LIKE I NEED YOU. PLEASE, BRING THEM TO ME, SO I CAN LOVE THEM THROUGH YOU, MY WEAK VESSEL. I WILL STRENGTHEN YOU AND TEACH YOU TO FOLLOW ME LIKE I DID TO THE DISCIPLES. TO MY THRONE YOU ARE ALWAYS WELCOME. COME. MY CHILD, TO THE FATHER'S ROOM AND HIS DOOR TO THE SUPERNATURAL LOVE CALLED, NAMED AGAPE. AMEN.
JOHN 14:23

the key to financial abundance, what for?

On June19, 2015, I prayed to God and asked Him to give me the KEY TO financial abundance. Just before I went to sleep that day, I heard God speak to me, “You asked me about the key to financial abundance. What are you going to do with those money?” I was puzzled, then I answered, “To pay off Sam’s loans.” It was quiet. Then, I thought, “maybe it is too much.” So I said, “One or two loans.” Then God answered me and said, “What after that? What do you want to do after that? Thank bigger and further!” Then I thought and said, “To travel to the nations require funds for the airplanes. I want always to have funds for travels. So, the key of financial abundance for travels."

 

 

Next day, June 20th, there was a block party called BLOCK OF FAITH. Karen came and we hand out together with Simon too. Somebody called us and said we dropped some money. There it was laying on the ground $20 bill. Karen rejoices and says, “That’s for my Kalmykia trip!” I rejoiced too! That day Sam at work received $1 and some cents.

The same month, my mother in Russia hears the Lord speak to her and give her instructions to travel to America again and to bring funds for the down payment for the house. So, she is coming on July 18th.

Another testimony that happened today (July 13th). There was a paper with information about one loan which payment was coming up in a few days. Sam calls the representative this morning and receives the news that it was all paid off. (around $4400).

We called another representative and it confirmed the same thing. WOW

On top of that, somebody paid it off in June of 2015.

 

Dreaming on a one day fast

Dream

 

This dream was given to me on June 23, 2015, the one day fast. A group of people went through the exhibition. Then we stood at the entrance to the exhibition and people were talking about how Jesus would go through this exhibition. I got so curious. “How did He do it?”

Then we saw Jesus who was by nature King. He walked slowly with dignity, honor and weight of authority. He stepped into the exhibition and we followed. The first manikin there was dressed in leather, so Jesus takes the hand of that manikin and says, “This is My body for you.” By Him saying those words, our hearts were melting with mercy.

Then Samuel, my husband, stood beside me and we were talking about Jesus. It seemed like Samuel had a revelation of Jesus glory and awesomeness. Then in my imagination, I went in my thoughts to the exhibition and made a decision to look into Jesus eyes with love. That to be bold with passion for Jesus. But then in my thoughts, I observed another tendency as well. Naturally, I would walk through this exhibition even with Jesus as if it is a common thing. And that found thought and attitude of my heart seemed so wrong and awful. My whole being desired to be a lover gazing upon Jesus.

 

 

Dreaming at the lake

On the weekend (from July 3^rd to July 4^th 2015), we camped at the lake property by the church. Bob and Sam led worship and I shared the word about reading the Word of God daily. That night the Lord gave me a unique dream.

First, Sam and I stood by the water and we saw a light in the shape of a cross. I said, “Jesus is coming toward us.” Then two men came to the place we were, one was Jesus and the other looked older, maybe the Father. Immediately I gave them water and made hot tea for Jesus. Upon which, Jesus told me, “You are a servant.” That word penetrated my being, that I went behind the hut in the darkness of the evening and meditated those words. I felt that God is proud of me for seeing servanthood in me, which was a surprise.

Then, Jesus asked me to clap. “How do you normally clap?” He asked. I started clapping timidly and softly. He came to my right side and copied my actions, but I could sense that this style of clapping was displeasing to the Savior. Then I clapped boldly and with all my heart, that action activated such a Presence of God and His power that I could not literally close my palms together. The sense of joy, accomplishment and ecstasy filled my being.

Then for a long while the Holy Spirit moved my body like a leaf in a wind. It seemed that Jesus was not in a hurry to get His message across or ministry of any kind. He joined with me in this long beautiful, delightful moment of falling in the Spirit. When I found myself on the floor, Jesus was beside me and spoke, “You’ve been shot…” ( a huge hole in my chest, heart area) and He continued, “it’s only 12 inches of how close I can come.” In both of those statements, the spirit behind those words explained that Father is SO content with me. That Jesus feels so close in proximity to me and to my heart. It felt like the greatest achievement!!! I felt like I had a treasure of great price and it will never be taken away from me.

Then the way I felt toward Jesus was like feeling to the best friend. We just simply spent time together dancing in the company of others. I felt secure and totally His. In a moment came a young girl, who looked like punk. She started showing us new dance move, and seeing that Jesus didn’t hesitate to start dancing those movements, I joined along. Upon which, my mother was sitting nearby and she rebuked me for dancing those movements. I replied that Jesus is dancing and He did not stop me.  Then Jesus come close to the mother and my mother greets Him in a respect, but she did not recognize Jesus. I wondered what He would do, would He defend Himself or reveal. He spoke to my mother about her mom. It was like a rebuke, pointing to the pattern of behavior that her mom started. By speaking nice, warm words but behind them were a tactic to get its way. Jesus did not like that. He mentioned about the fact that my mom did not resist those thoughts, but Jesus said He will pray for us. And Jesus interceded for our generation, starting from grandma.

 

I will take care of all your needs and desires

“I will take care of all your needs and desires. I am God El Shadai, More than enough! I can! That is why it is said, “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” Nothing is impossible with Me, I am God and there is no other.” That was just a snippet of the words God spoke to me. It was encouraging to read about the context of the whole message that had to do with friendship, but for right now I highlighted only this section to show you that God cares for our needs and desires. It is one thing to admit that God cares for people’s needs and desires, but can we truly believe that God wants to take care of your needs and desires. On top of that, not just few needs that you have and maybe dreams. He says to us, all of our needs and desires. WOW! Terrific! Good news!

Just lately I realized that God truly wants to supply one of the dreams that I had before. You see, for a very long time I used to write different dreams, revelations and experiences I had with the Lord, hoping that somebody would read it and it will encourage their faith. Then after sometime, I gave up on that dream of writing until recently the Lord resurrected that within me by speaking “write.” I was sincerely puzzled by that word. The Holy Spirit reminded like in a cinema different times that my heart was moved to write for a reason, a purpose that was my desire. And now God says “I am giving you a portable computer to write. Your destiny is to write.”  He provided a tablet with keyboard the very next day. WOW. God, You truly care about some dreams of ours? Aren’t they so small and insignificant, compared to Your great plans and desires? Our dreams are indeed smaller than Gods, but it brings Him the delight of fulfilling our dreams. Because God said, “Delight yourself also in the Lord and He shall give you the desires of your heart.” Psalm 37:4 The Lord also explained to me that to desire one thing is a lie of the enemy. We can have many different desires and work on those dreams with God’s blessing.

“The Lord will guide you always; He will satisfy your needs…” Isaiah 58:11

 

 

My heart says "Your face will I seek!"

  Jeremiah 29:13
"You will seek Me and find Me when you seek Me with all your heart."

Isaiah 29:13
"These people come near to Me with their mouth and honor Me with their lips, but their hearts are far from Me."

Matthew 6:33
"But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness"

-with all heart
- not just with lips
-and seek first

First does not mean early morning. First means it is very valuable, precious and important. Like a marriage ceremony. Imagine today is your wedding day. Even though there are a lot of other things to be done and said, your first thing is "I am going to be married today!" Then when the time for the marriage ceremony comes, it is understood that it demands and expects your whole heart involvement, not just lip service.

In the same way, Jesus offers us to seek Him. When we realize that He is our priority every day, then we anticipate to find Him and encounter Him with our whole heart.

"One thing I ask from the Lord,
this only do I seek:
that I may dwell in the house of the Lord
all the days of my life,
to gaze on the beauty of the lord
and to seek Him in His temple."
Psalm 27:4

"My heart says of You, "Seek His face!"
 Your face, Lord, I will seek."
Psalm 27:8

One of my favorite verse in the Bible that moves my heart is from Proverbs 8:17,
"I love those who love Me, and those who seek Me find Me." I think about this verse in a way, like someone says, "Hey, do you know that you can find Someone, who existed before everything was created? You can find it! But here is the thing, only through LOVE!" So, allow your heart to love JESUS so passionately like never before, like no one else. Love Him with all your heart and go find Him, the One Who is before all things! Let your heart say, "Your face, Lord, I will seek!"

Reverse the negative confession into positive!

        Dear readers, I would like to take you on a journey of transformation with me. It is so much fun to walk alongside of someone to discover God’s presence and beauty manifest.

For a very long period of my life I spoke a negative confession over and over. Inside of me I had a desire to turn that around, but I felt blocked by my own words. That wrong confession was a statement “I don’t know.” I used to say this phrase so many times a day and just imagine how many times that would be a year. I ran to that statement every time I saw a difficulty, every time someone asked me a question and at other various times. One time the Lord brought that to my attention, and I had a strong urge to change that. However, there was no visible long lasting results, I still continued to use that negative confession.

In hearing Olga Golikova preach, the Lord spoke through her that we need to pay attention to the little details of our lives and to bring them to order. She used an example of wrong speech, such as “I don’t know,” “I can’t,” and others. She explained that a negative habit takes a while to change, but we need to take responsibility and become diligent.  Instead of saying wrong confessions, as such above, we can say, “I want to know,” or “I would like to find out,” “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.”

Today I was putting to practice that which I heard yesterday. To my amazement how quick and easy those negative words want to slip out of my mouth and I had to gird them with the right words. It is a fun and enjoyable work to catch those foxes, so that my garden may be beautiful and prosperous to the Lord and to others.

“Catch for us the foxes, the little foxes that ruin the vineyards, our vineyards that are in bloom.” Song of Solomon 2:15

‘LIPS THAT SPEAK KNOWLEDGE ARE A RARE JEWEL.” PROVERBS 20:15

‘THE LIPS OF THE WISE SPREAD KNOWLEDGE.” PROVERBS 15:7

‘MY PEOPLE ARE DESTROYED FROM THE LACK OF KNOWLEDGE” HOSEA 4:6